Mrs Kenna Senn
Sunday School Superintendent, Substitute SS Teacher
Choir, Runs Church Bookstore, Gives Devo's at Ladies Bible Studies
Liberty Baptist Church
Fircrest, WA
MY HEAVENLY HUSBAND
Hello everyone, my name is Kenna Senn, and I am humbled to be here writing to you ladies. I only know a couple of you on here and hope what I'm going to talk about can be a blessing to even one person as it has been to me. My topic is going to come from Hosea and a wonderful story of God’s love. But it isn't about how God made Hosea marry an harlot and shows us through Hosea’s sorrow that he redeems his bride back to himself after she chases other men and ruins her life. Nor am I going to talk about how it is a story of Israel’s redemption after leaving God and chasing after other gods. For we know that God is a jealous God and wants all of our worship.
What I am going to talk about today is personal and I may cry as I write this. I'm sharing this today because I believe God wants me to. So please bare with me as I tell my story. Let me pray first. Father, you know my heart and how I only want to say what you would have me to say. Please speak through me and to these ladies. May my story and what you have shown me in Hosea be a help, comfort, and hope to anyone here. Whether it's for the reader or someone they know is going through something similar. Thank you Father for trusting me with this trial and let others be blessed for it. I ask this in Jesus, my Lord and Saviours name, Amen.
So I'm just going to jump right in. Feb. 21 of this year marked 25 years of marriage. My husband and I were not saved when we got married, so we were both worldly. Then I got saved two years later. He didn't get saved until 6 months after 911. But he never really got grounded and never made Jesus Lord of his life. We have had a crazy, hard, fun, painful marriage. Which I suspect all of us have. Anyway, my husband decided that he no longer wanted to go to church and stopped going about 7 years ago. It has been difficult and through the years he went deeper into the world. Oh, it broke my heart as I watched my husband slowly slip away from God, me, and our four children. Please understand that I’m only telling you all this so you can understand how much this passage in Hosea means to me.
Without going into all the details, let me just say that on Jan 21st of this year, my world was turned upside down and my life will never be the same. I found my husband with another woman. I thought my life was over. He showed no remorse and to this day has shown no desire to reconcile. Before you think it, yes, I have had to come to terms to my fault in our marriage and have done all I can to repent, ask forgiveness to my Lord and to my husband. Trust me when I say, I had no idea that this would ever happen to me.
So now that I have laid the ground work, let me tell you the beauty from the ashes of my life. I can say with conviction that God's word is alive, it is real; not just in bible times, but for today as well. I have been through so much these past 9 months and to be honest, I have been in deep despair. I lost all hope, and prayed many nights through the tears and the agony for God to take me home. Of course, He had other plans.
My biggest prayer has been for my husband to get right with God and then for our marriage to be restored. As the days, weeks, and months have passed by, my hope dwindled and I struggled with never being with my husband. It consumed me constantly. I would just think about him and cry. I didn't want to be around married couples or even see them. It would rip my heart right open. I prayed for help yet the pain would not stop.
Then someone told me that I really need to stop being so consumed with my husband, let God deal with him and his sin, and take care of my walk with God; even if that means being without my husband the rest of my life. Those were harsh words for me to hear, yet it was what I needed to start my road to recovery.
It was the next morning that I prayed and asked God to help me to stop being consumed with my husband and allow him to do a work in him that only He can do. Btw, it's amazing God's timing, and how he works things out. I then began to do my devotions with my bible reading chart that I had made myself, last year, for this year. Again, God's timing. It was that very morning that my chart had me reading the story of Hosea when God opened a verse that changed me and my view of my Father.
I have always been intrigued by the story of Hosea, sometimes even crying out how sad or unfair God was to put Hosea through all that pain. But on that morning I didn't see any of that. I came to chapter 2 and verse 16, which says….. And it shall be that day, saith the Lord, that thou shalt call me Ishi; and no more Baali….. I was curious to what these two words meant so I looked them up. Ishi means first man, but then the next word that stood out for me was “husband.” My heart just started to pound and I began to cry. Then I looked up Baali and it meant “my lord.”
Right then God was showing me that I was to look at him not as just my lord, but also, “my husband.” He showed me that I, like Gomer, was chasing after love, acceptance, joy, and peace with the wrong men. I put my will for my marriage above my relationship with my God. God is Hosea in this story redeeming me back to him. Oh, did I just fall into my Father's arms right then and wept for the first time with joy.
I now place God as my heavenly husband, “Ishi,” and trust him to take care of me as a spouse should for all my needs. We know the verse Phil. 4:19 that says….. But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus…. He new my need was for a husband who would take care of me, and he has not let me down.
Again, I gave my testimony that it would or could help someone going through a trial who needs to see God in a real way. When we are on the mountain top we can say with confidence God is good and he takes care of us. It's when we are in the valley that God proves that to us.
Hello everyone, my name is Kenna Senn, and I am humbled to be here writing to you ladies. I only know a couple of you on here and hope what I'm going to talk about can be a blessing to even one person as it has been to me. My topic is going to come from Hosea and a wonderful story of God’s love. But it isn't about how God made Hosea marry an harlot and shows us through Hosea’s sorrow that he redeems his bride back to himself after she chases other men and ruins her life. Nor am I going to talk about how it is a story of Israel’s redemption after leaving God and chasing after other gods. For we know that God is a jealous God and wants all of our worship.
What I am going to talk about today is personal and I may cry as I write this. I'm sharing this today because I believe God wants me to. So please bare with me as I tell my story. Let me pray first. Father, you know my heart and how I only want to say what you would have me to say. Please speak through me and to these ladies. May my story and what you have shown me in Hosea be a help, comfort, and hope to anyone here. Whether it's for the reader or someone they know is going through something similar. Thank you Father for trusting me with this trial and let others be blessed for it. I ask this in Jesus, my Lord and Saviours name, Amen.
So I'm just going to jump right in. Feb. 21 of this year marked 25 years of marriage. My husband and I were not saved when we got married, so we were both worldly. Then I got saved two years later. He didn't get saved until 6 months after 911. But he never really got grounded and never made Jesus Lord of his life. We have had a crazy, hard, fun, painful marriage. Which I suspect all of us have. Anyway, my husband decided that he no longer wanted to go to church and stopped going about 7 years ago. It has been difficult and through the years he went deeper into the world. Oh, it broke my heart as I watched my husband slowly slip away from God, me, and our four children. Please understand that I’m only telling you all this so you can understand how much this passage in Hosea means to me.
Without going into all the details, let me just say that on Jan 21st of this year, my world was turned upside down and my life will never be the same. I found my husband with another woman. I thought my life was over. He showed no remorse and to this day has shown no desire to reconcile. Before you think it, yes, I have had to come to terms to my fault in our marriage and have done all I can to repent, ask forgiveness to my Lord and to my husband. Trust me when I say, I had no idea that this would ever happen to me.
So now that I have laid the ground work, let me tell you the beauty from the ashes of my life. I can say with conviction that God's word is alive, it is real; not just in bible times, but for today as well. I have been through so much these past 9 months and to be honest, I have been in deep despair. I lost all hope, and prayed many nights through the tears and the agony for God to take me home. Of course, He had other plans.
My biggest prayer has been for my husband to get right with God and then for our marriage to be restored. As the days, weeks, and months have passed by, my hope dwindled and I struggled with never being with my husband. It consumed me constantly. I would just think about him and cry. I didn't want to be around married couples or even see them. It would rip my heart right open. I prayed for help yet the pain would not stop.
Then someone told me that I really need to stop being so consumed with my husband, let God deal with him and his sin, and take care of my walk with God; even if that means being without my husband the rest of my life. Those were harsh words for me to hear, yet it was what I needed to start my road to recovery.
It was the next morning that I prayed and asked God to help me to stop being consumed with my husband and allow him to do a work in him that only He can do. Btw, it's amazing God's timing, and how he works things out. I then began to do my devotions with my bible reading chart that I had made myself, last year, for this year. Again, God's timing. It was that very morning that my chart had me reading the story of Hosea when God opened a verse that changed me and my view of my Father.
I have always been intrigued by the story of Hosea, sometimes even crying out how sad or unfair God was to put Hosea through all that pain. But on that morning I didn't see any of that. I came to chapter 2 and verse 16, which says….. And it shall be that day, saith the Lord, that thou shalt call me Ishi; and no more Baali….. I was curious to what these two words meant so I looked them up. Ishi means first man, but then the next word that stood out for me was “husband.” My heart just started to pound and I began to cry. Then I looked up Baali and it meant “my lord.”
Right then God was showing me that I was to look at him not as just my lord, but also, “my husband.” He showed me that I, like Gomer, was chasing after love, acceptance, joy, and peace with the wrong men. I put my will for my marriage above my relationship with my God. God is Hosea in this story redeeming me back to him. Oh, did I just fall into my Father's arms right then and wept for the first time with joy.
I now place God as my heavenly husband, “Ishi,” and trust him to take care of me as a spouse should for all my needs. We know the verse Phil. 4:19 that says….. But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus…. He new my need was for a husband who would take care of me, and he has not let me down.
Again, I gave my testimony that it would or could help someone going through a trial who needs to see God in a real way. When we are on the mountain top we can say with confidence God is good and he takes care of us. It's when we are in the valley that God proves that to us.
I am sorry for your pain and what you have gone through but so full of admiration and joy that you have learned a lesson many Christians never do--that God proves His care when we trust Him in the "valleys" of life. My "trial" is very different from yours but just as painful, yet God has proven over and over that He walks with me in the "valley" and it is there I have learned that at my weakest He becomes my strength and joy. Thank you for sharing this.
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ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your
Deletepain also.....although my situation is a little bit different than yours I also have asked God to be my husband at times when it did not look like I was being taken care of the way a wife should be.....I also found the verse about Him being my husband (Is 54:5) and it completely changed the way I looked at things. His ways are so much higher than our ways. I believe He can be anything or anyone that we need or want Him to be. I also believe in looking up the meanings of the names that are used in the bible....He put them in there for a reason and that is why we are supposed to study to show ourselves approved. My Heavenly Father has been such a blessing to me. Thanks for sharing.....I'm sure you are and will have a blessed life especially when following the Lord.
Such a great relief to put faith and trust completely in God that way. Thank you.
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